Rollercoaster Of Love
This weekend has been an emotional rollercoaster. I feel elated and SO SURE that IVF will work for us one minute and terrified the next. I visited my grandparents this weekend and was shocked at the deterioration of my grandmother’s mental condition. She has some kind of cyst on her brain and although the doctors aren’t using the word Alzheimer’s, it is abundantly obvious to me that is what she is suffering from. She is always a little forgetful but this was full-fledged mental debilitation. She can’t make a sandwich. It is so sad. You can just see the life...
Read MoreComedy and Tragedy
Today is the happiest BFN ever! Of course I had to POAS this morning because we are 14dpiui – it was negative. Then we went to the clinic for STD testing and shot training – basically a pre-IVF appointment. The nurse looked over our charts and said “you’re all ready to go!” I said “well everything except for that grant.” She looked puzzled and said we must have been approved if we are on her list. She scurried around the office looking for someone to verify we had been approved and indeed we had! So, now we count the days until May when...
Read MoreDreams
I had the most disturbing dream last night. My mother – who was about 10 years younger in the dream at about 45ish – decided she wanted to have another baby. She had her tubal ligation reversed and was actively trying to get pregnant. Calling me and asking about ovulation predictor kits and such. I was, obviously, a little upset about this! I mean it is my turn! The worst part of the dream was that everyone acted like I shouldn’t be upset – that I was being mean to Mom by not wanting her to have a baby. It was so weird. I woke up kind of discombobulated. I...
Read MoreLet the Two Week Wait Begin
12.06 million post-wash motile! Woohoo! That is our best ever. I’m so excited and hopeful. I prayed and we visualized the sperm fertilizing the egg as I lay for the requisite 10 minutes post IUI. I really really hope we get pregnant. But, if not, I hope we have an answer regarding the IVF before I get a BFN. Go Spermies Go!!!
Read MoreLH Surge (or how I hate Ovulation Predictor Kits)
If I never see pink lines again it would be too soon. It seems a cruel twist of fate that the one thing infertile women want to see…2 pink lines…can be so hard to discern on an OPK. For those of you who don’t know 2 pink lines on a pregnancy test means YOU”RE PREGNANT. On an ovulation predictor kit it means…ummm…well…i’m not sure…it depends…look over here in this light…no angle it more toward the right. Does that look darker? lighter? You would think that modern science (that can put a man on the moon, right?) could...
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