I feel so blessed now by my rock-bottom landing and bounce back. Not only has it given me back my long-lost and much needed faith in God but it has had many other blessings.
One is a wonderfully renewed marriage. More about that later.
I am amazed to find I feel no jealousy toward mothers or pregnant women! I am free from that oppressive, dark emotion. I feel overjoyed for them – they are being given (or have been giving) a wonderful gift! I have several pregnant friends and I truly feel joy for them – not forced joy.
I wonder if I’m ready to be around or hold a small child? That one still scares me very much. Just thinking about holding an infant makes me feel this deep, dark, hole of pain in my chest.
Baby steps I guess.
Oh yeah, CD1!! Let the Clomid Challenge Begin! Bring it on!