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31 by Paige on Mon 31 Jul 2006 10:40 PM EDT First, I want to send everyone over to read StellaNova’s beautiful metaphor, The End is Still Darkness. Beautiful and touching. So, right now it is 10:28PM. At midnight tonight I turn 31 years old. I have never hated my birthday before. I’m not the type to get upset at getting old. I wouldn’t be 21 again if you paid me (unless, of course, you paid me enough for IVF! ). However, this birthday just makes me want to cry. I don’t want a birthday or a birthday cake or any festivities. I want a BABY! I...
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by Paige on Fri 28 Jul 2006 12:14 PM EDT Hallelujah! Norfolk International Airport has free wireless access! I hate paying 9.95 for 24 hours notice when I’m going to be in an airport for less than 2 hours. So, I have been on business travel this week in Virginia. I really debated earlier this month whether I should bow out of this trip. I knew I would a) be pregnant (yeah, right) or b) be very upset at another failed cycle. In hind sight it was the best thing for me. You know travel can be a mini-vacation, even if it is work related. For a few sweet days my normal...
Read MoreFinal post of IUI #2
by Paige on Sun 23 Jul 2006 01:22 PM EDT Well, I’m not spotting anymore. AF arrived full force. I just have no words in me right now. More later. Comments (9) | Permanent...
Read MoreWhat the hell?
by Paige on Wed 19 Jul 2006 09:34 PM EDT Ok, I almost don’t want to post this because tomorrow I’m going to feel like an idiot. Hey, if I’m going to blog I might as well parade my hope, pain, misery, and stupidity all accross the web. I am 7dpiui and this evening I had spotting. I wasn’t even looking because I’ve been so sure that this cycle is a bust but I guess “looking” is just a habit. When I saw it I had an instantaneous spike of hope followed immediately by a punch of despair. I was doing so good with not getting my hopes up...
Read MoreI’ll take 2 pink lines for $200, Alex
by Paige on Mon 17 Jul 2006 07:47 PM EDT 5 dpiui…strangely enough it is moving really fast. I hope I can keep my mind off the wait. I’m trying to convince myself that this couldn’t possibly have worked and we are ready to move on to step #2 (not ready to divulge our step 2 yet… more later). In the back of my mind of course I still think that “it only takes one” and the even stupider (is that a word?) feeling that we definitely deserve it this time. I know, I know… this isn’t about deserving or we would all have bouncing babies...
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